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Sunday December 7, 2008 - Last night I had a dream that started out to be about Donnie Wahlberg. Then dreamed about Jason.  First I dreamed about Donnie Wahlberg.  I dreamed I kissed him after that I think he found out that I had another guy on the side.  Then in my dream he said it was either me or the other guy. (the other guy was Jason-from bmt,tx)  Anyhow I dreamed I broke up with Jason knowing one guy would be hurt. I didn't want to hurt either one.  

(I know, My dreams really jumbled up but that's how I really dreamed it.)   That's about it... for now. I had something totally different typed but lost it when I clicked on a picture to add it to this blog. 

OMG! I left out one small detail.  At some point in my dream, I dreamed I threw a pumpkin pie (with a pile of whipped cream on top) in Jason's face! LMAO!  I can't believe I forgot to add that!  

I think it may have been Jordan Knight whom I was writing. I am not quite sure persay. Well, I was watching the special on E! New Kids on the Block : together again.  He has told me a few things that I just put two and two together.  Back in early March 1993, he has told me that he was having some things done to his house. And what I heard in the video was somewhat the same thing.  I still have the notes and its been about 15 years since we wrote to each other.  But the last note I remember J saying/writing to me was "Good luck with you and I hope to talk to again someday."    

Ok, I will write more later as I remember.  I swear it was him.... Oh and a friend at the time told me not to act like a fan.  What he said to me that really got me.... was he accused me of giving out his id/email.  when in reality he posted on a public bulliten board and said I gave out his id/email.  I would never do that to anyone!  

Well, I gotta now. I will write more later.  Just wanted write this down only for me to see.

Now I want to lose about 10 more pounds and get down to about 129. I know how to do that now.  Eat healthly, exercise at least 4 times a week. Oh and drinking water uses up stored fat.  Well that's what I discovered on my copy of Walk @ home with the belt. It's a great workout!  You can choose if you want to do 1, 2 or 3 miles - or you can do all three. Its Great! This dvd is well worth it and only $12. and something.

Hello.

Just wanted to say that I weighed in at 141.2 -- so I lost 2.4!  Maybe next week I'll get down to my goal weight which is 139. 

Oh guess what?! I'm in a size 8 jeans!

Well I gotta go now. I will write more later.

Ok.  I was cleaning out my desk and ran across 11 of my journals.  One of which, some old classmates wrote in when I was in high school back in 1994.  Well, I was concidered a senior. Anyhow, they wrote notes in a page or two in reply to one or two journal entries.  And here is what a few of them wrote:  I hope this is okay.    This is what someone named Jenny said:  here goes....

"Pam is not a phycho bitch, she quiet and keeps to herself but she's not a bitch. she's funny and makes me laugh." Jenny from 3rd and 5th per.

Okay, the next is what Jamia said:  "Pam you're a very nice girl you might not talk but you're nice, don't let anyone tell you, you are a psycho bitch. If they tell them there some stupid bitches."  from Jamia in 3rd per. sci. and 5th per. P.E.

Here is what someone named Angie said:  "Hi Pam! Keep your head up. Your a quiet nice person. Just don't listen to people who call you names because there the ones who are mess up, k." 

Flipped through another page and found one more that someone named Angie wrote:  "Pam don't believe what people say because you are not a psycho bitch! Just ignore them! Your a really nice person." -Angie. 

Just as the notes explained everything about the name calling. Yeah, kids can be so cruel. Yeah they can blame you for something you didn't even do.  Well, just thought I'd write in this blog entry awhile as I haven't written anything in the past 2 or 3 months. lol.